Just be yourself, and if guys don't like you because they think you fat then fine for them. There will be some guy out there that will like you for the way you are. Be yourself!!

YAY!!! CONGRATULATIONS

:)

much love Amanda xxx

It isn't love. It is people. Once you find the right one it all falls into place!  Take your time, enjoy things you love and it will happen when it is time!

Uhmmm wurrlll it's your body, do wth you want. But it doesn't sound like your treating your body with the respect it deserves, and when your laying in hospital, i think you'll just about realise that. Wurrll this si a bit weird but theres this  sexualadviser, but they advise on other things, so i reckon you should give her a message.

Ciara x

dont worry girl...pick yourself up tomorro :) memba you gotta prove me right! you are in control memba! :)

stay strong. think thin :)

xoxoxox

erm...
i think i'd say good day just becvause
you did get rid o the kebab

stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

it sounds like a good plan

stay strong huni

much love Amanda xxx

800 cals is good! I had more than that but it was because I was drinking beer. Have a good one!

awesome
very nice sum up :)

stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

 Much appreciated! We shall be good! So, 600kcals starting today! Because I'm cr*p, my top top end limit is 1200kcals, which is meant to be the minimum you can eat, if like I have to eat dinner with parents etc! But will stick to 600kcals! xxxx

Don't worry about eating loads today, so did I in the end! We'll be extra extra good tommorow! xxx

Don't do it girl....stay strong...stay you. 

i BET YOU ARE SKINNY, THE PICTURES U PUT BEFORE SHOWED YOU WERE AND I BET YOU STILL ARE IF YOU DID A NEW PIK NOW.

LOV YA

Good to hear that you've escaped it. Stay happy!

~xJade~

OMG!how did your friend get to snog russell brand???was he good??

i met him but i only hugged him.he was so tall i was kind of hugging his crotch.....mmmm heheh

f*** i'd marry anyone with an irish accent!

xxxxxxxx

lol  I hope my comment about some perv didn't freak you out.  But in this world, you cannot be too safe.  You'd be amazed at how quick you can be tracked down just based on what you post online.  As a mom, this scares me.  So whenever I see pictures like that, my skin crawls knowing that older men look at this site simply for the fact that young girls post pics and their info. 

When I was 15, I used to talk to this creep online.  I liked the attention, however, I knew he was older and it was wrong.  I didn't know how wrong until he found me in real life.   Its a long story but basically he used the info I posted about myself to call me at work. What's also scary is, I never told the town I live in, just the state.  But to make a long story short, he found me, I think he would of done something terrible had I not told my parents who involved the police. 

So now I'm older (22) and I don't want to see anyone get hurt or worse because of something so small.  Ya just never know.  I just know that no mother should have to go identify her daughter's body. 

Sorry for the long comment. 

Thanks, but im not feelin' it. lol

And i am really glad you are escapin ana and mia!

Much love

Juicyx

He really isnt as much of a dickhead as it sounds. I mean he can be but its not like he FORCED me to do anything he just talked me into... made it sound good and made me want to do it. but he makes up for it in alot of other ways. He's so sweet and he puts up with my moods and my friends and he even gets along with my parents. but anyway thanks for the comment :]

and wow that is funny haha [the 4 month thing]

bye :]

I hope your nan's okay, and your mum is okay as well. Are apples really neg cal? I didn't think they were but hopefully you're right! I didn't end up getting any today anyway but oh well!

thinsponeeded xxx

i love the feeling of a day without food! it feels so good on your brain

congrats from me:)

=) thanks a trillion for that comment.. that was defo the nicest comment ive ever gotten on my diary.. i dno y but u made me feel like i had hope and happiness and for once in my life i think i really do. thanks!!

sounds like someone had sexxxy time;) go get em

G'luck..

love forever cxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

haha wow thankyou.that means a lot.

you enjoy your valium haha

xxx

 I might have to start taking advantage of every oppurtunity to get up and walk about at work to keep myself burning!! Lol! xxx

 Work is always good for calorie burning! Unless you do my job which involves sitting at a till the whole day! Enjoy your daydreaming!!

xxx

Hey!

 You added me so I thought I'd say hi!

thinsponeeded xxx

Hi
how are u?
At the end of the month I'm leaving MDD
so I wont have any Ana support or anything
I really can't afford to loose the support I have on here
so if you could please give me addresses (snail mail)
and cell/mobile numbers
please I wont be able to access the net at all
no thinspo, no pro ana nothing
just me
thats why Ineed you guys to repliy
please please repliy I cant afford to loose such great freinds
stay strong
much love Amanda xxx

This entry makes me wana cry! Tomorrow will be better, Thats a promise. Don't gve up on yourself fight for happiness.

I feel lonely in a house full of people. You're so lucky to have that. I feel lonely in a house alone. I would do anything for someone to be here. Talk to them.

I promise you're not trapped or alone.

Love&Support, xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

i Know how you feel

huni, please dont give up hope

stay strong

much love Amanda xxx

aw, let yourself sleep in once in a while. its not going to kill you. you probably deserve it too :]

anyways, i love reading and that sounds really good. might pick myself up a copy later...

No Problem =]

When you know the lyrics to the song but you don't know the name of it you can always google it. That's what I always do.

When I hear a song on the radio but they never say the name of it I always get so mad.

But all you have to do is go to google and put a line from the song in qoutations and then type lyrics...ex.

"So wont you come and fight back" lyrics

 and normally you'll find it somewhere.

Hope this helps you in the future!

Zoey.

P.s. Googling works for anything, haha! Literally any question you may have, it's fun. =]

sounds fun

i will

much love Amanda xxx

I just googled it, it's call "Small Talk" by Saving Aimee

Zoey.

Ohhmygosh you sound soo much like me lol

You can do it!

Much love&support

Juicyx 

aww i,m so happy your happy

and that you got the job that you wanted

stay strong

much love Amanda xxx

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES!U GOT THE JOB!! HAPPY DANCE WITH YOU.. an ex anorexic in a butchers?

.sorry i couldn't resist lollol! just rememberin the 'bakers' line.. hell  yeah u got wooohooo

Love&Support Chloe, xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey girll.. I totally love reading too.. i like LOVE LOVE LOVE it! f***in hell, its amazing.. and u fall in love with the characters and then when it ends ur like=(=( Lol.. i am SUCH a nerd Anyhoo, tot id leave that lil bit of info for ya=)

Love&Support Chloe xxxxxxxxxxx

[ObsessiveLovage]

Hey thanks for the comment on my last entry...all my friends on myspace that read that said the same thing, that its nice to hear a guy say that....hah

LATER!!!

Size 6 :(

I am jealous :P

Good luck

Juicyx

have a good day too babes.

Love ya

xxxxx

i feel like this all the f*ckin time. i dont want to feel guilty anymore. if i could just get out of that rut i could stop my e.d. but. . . i cant. so i guess im stuck talking about stupid food and sh*t

Yay, I'm so happy for you.. like really! hope you keep up the happiness=)

Love&Support, Chloe xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Im glad your good :)

happy 100th entry :)

Juicyx 

lol hobnobs and peanut butter are my weaknesses too

good luck with your interview/job tomorrow

much love Amanda xxx

i feel the same as you.

love. x

:)

i'm glad your in recovery

and ha, you sould just like i would to an ex.

they're all c*nts :)

Loves ya.

xxxx

omg.omg.omg. size 4:O:O:O lovesit=)

omg i love bb two.. haha n amy winehouse?? i like it. mayb i wer thinkin of her cuz shes like anorexic? haha thatd b weird.. but i love amy=) chew+ spit is reli gd bt im always afraid i swallowed loads!:O xxxxxxxxxx

oh really! your so lucky ima 10/12 so u bein a 10/8 is really motivational, your lucky!! lol...

yay. NO binging for us no more¢¾

Yay on shopping!! lol.. i added here. uck im doin like awwwful wbu?? You sound like your doin reallllly goood.

size 6?? rawwwwwwwwr!

xxx

aww im sorry to hear bout the wqeight gain huni

but have fun with your friends

much love Amanda xxx

I feel the same as you hun,

we will make it.

lots of support

Juicyx

You have to eat, U can faint and go to the doctors,

This year  at school i thought i was fat and everyone said i wasint but i didnt beli. them and i stopped eating at school...Once i didnt anything the whole day i had no energy and felt like i was going to faint. The teachers worried about me and i always had to go to the guidance room. I got calls from school but my mom didnt care cuz i lied to her. I never eat at school for like i think 4 months or so. The teachers tried EVERYTHING to make me eat. My gym teacher would stand there looking at me and tell me to eat one time he made me get a sandwitch he was watching me then went outside and he told my friends to tell him if i eat but i threw it away and they lied for me.and at gym i had no enery to gym. and i fell and i wouldint try so the gym teacher made one of the girls get the nurse and i had a talk with her and him and blahhh blah And my social studies teacher tried to make me eat..They tried almost everything i even had to talk to the vice princable! It was when we were in the lunch room i almost cried cuz he was kinda yelling at me and i had to say something and i coudint let it out. i was close to this one guidance consular and i told her tht he cant make me eat and she talked to him i mean she was worried about me too. but yeah this is long haha at the end i did eat cuz everyone was driving me crazy and the guys called me anorexic girl and they wouldint stop bugging me about it and i sat with them at lunch amd my friends. so yeah and u will have ppl calling anorxic.

good for you girl. im not sure you SHOULD ask him back out. if its over maybe it was for the best.

its good that your staying the same wieght

i have too. eventually my metabolism will level out and ill start loosing again. . .  eh. poor ana. . . shes mad at me right now

i feel sick

anyway gotta go

-me

I hate chocolate.. it tastes good for about 5 minutes while you're eating it and then makes you feel sh*t, sh*t, sh*t!!! 

Ugh.  I try not to purge anymore though- I hate it but I find it addictive (if that makes sense??).  It makes my throat and stomach burn and I can't afford anymore dental work!

Hhehe... i made u laugh?For reall? omg yay! thats lk cool..normally ppl are like..okay..at my lame jokes..

hehehe.

yeah, well in ireland they sell it in the chemist but lk they put it in the supermarket beside the painkillers+shampoo and stuff.. i think they sell it all over the world tho!  apparently they work. i realllllllllly hope so.

boy, i need em!

Support&Love, Chloe xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hehe I'm tryin!  Congrats on the weight loss :D  Hmm I'm curious as to what that drink is.  I take store bought laxies though.  Anyway, thanks for the note :)

<3